just livin.

im frustrated.

im overwhelmed.

i feel like everything is going wrong right now.

and i can't handle it.

"Someone comes into your life, and half of you says - danger stay in your cave your no where near ready and the other half says go get them immediately"

I spend most of my time in my perfect world through movies or music. Thinkin about exactly want I want and how I want my future to turn out to be. Reality is- its making me miss the present. I find myself always complaining about the present, then looking back and thinking how I should have been grateful for what I had back then...because its "worse" now.

I swear every time something good comes my way. I some how manage to either screw it up or life randomly takes it away from me.

It'd be a whole lot easier if God just stuck the right path in front of me saying "GO THERE! Thats the college your going to graduate at. Thats the boy your going to marry. Thats the career your going to love. Thats the right decision your going to make".

But hey I guess thats not how it works and thats how we live life. As for now...all I can say is God I need you so much right now. I feel like I have nobody helping me. And on top of that I've been putting You at the bottom of my priorities. Whats wrong with me.