change.

I'm kind of at the point where I just don't care where my life goes anymore. Community college sucks beyond belief and I was all about going back to Biola and actually graduating there. But now all that seems so far :( Darn you expensive Cali and college tuition! So I might move to Washington as soon as January or after summer. Which is obviously NOT exactly what I want. But I suppose ya can't always have what you want. I have no idea what I'm doing next semester, and my grades are about as bad as I make IVC out to be. It just stinks leaving everything from my past behind. I hate goodbyes. I hate moving. and I hate change.

Besides all this disgusting negativity ha. Maybe I'll actually like going to school over there? Maybe I'll meet new friends ORRR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! Hahahaha now I'm being crazy.

God is still good and in control - so behind all this whining and complaining I'm still as thankful as ever for just living for Him :]

PS. I HATE RAIN TOO.

LIFE IS SUPER!

I have no idea why I always get the inspiration to blog late at night. I'm just so excited !

So recently, I've been getting connected and super involved with different church services, bible studies, and just studying Gods word more and getting to know Him more in general :)

I feel as if I've seen more the bigger picture, rather than just what I've always understood.

I know I'm not making any sense. But sometimes I question why God does things and I get frustrated wondering why and what all the reasons could be. But anyways, sometimes we just gotta say "Because He's God, and He can". I've realized how much of my life is a gift. Everything that I have was all given to me, by Him. Every single breath, step, blink I take is all because He allows me! I don't know- I suppose I'm just amazed how powerful He is. Its just amazing how He knew everything before we were even born. Every mistake, achievement, happy, sad moment. Blaaah its just so exciting every time I get to know God more. Like francis chan said, I just can't wait to see our God and for Him to say "Of course I know her, thats my daughter".

:) :) :)

IM MEEEEEEESMERIZED BY HIS LOVE!

When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us,
Oh, how He loves us,
How He loves us.