valentines

This years Valentines day was filled with spending time with the family and coming back home to the one and only Savior. The past couple of weeks haven't exactly been the best, but the hardest transition for everyone in my family- especially for me. Harsh words were yelled that probably shouldn't have been said,countless arguments have gone down that went no where, and stupidity has shown at its finest through all this anger. But besides all that, I guess nothing can separate the love no matter what. Putting all that aside and having a vday lunch over lechon kawali and sinigang always brings us together ;) haha.

Even though I didn't get to be with my "valentine" today. That was fine with me. Being away hasn't changed my love but it has made me stronger. Its crazy how certain things lead you to paths that you think you would never take but end up needing it. There's never a day where I can't help but miss you so much till it hurts. There's never a moment where I catch you off my mind. Distance has pushed me even further into not wanting to let go. I know what's best for me and I still don't listen. There's just something that my heart can't tear apart with. Memories running through my mind are just breakin me down every single day. Wonder if time will tell, or we'll just fade away, or if you even think the same way about us.

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Speaking of Love. What more could I ask for but for another chance. I know I've blown every single "re-do" at life You've given me. I've screwed up so many times and yet here I am still running back to You. God, your all I need.

Christianity is not just a belief, its a lifestyle also.

Once you've believe in Him, its either all or nothing.

And people don't seem to understand that, including I.

The apostles walked away from everything once they followed Jesus.

Could I really do that if I had to? Leave my family, friends, job, school, EVERYTHING?

Just to follow Him?

If I proclaim to be a Jesus follower, I better be one.

I can't be screwing around like this.

People think once they believe- they can do whatever they want.

Its straight up and simply no.

So here I am saying...God I want You.

My life is yours, not mine.

Use me for your glory and set my fire ablaze.