loyal

Not to sound annoying or anything but this blog is pretty much going to be a rant. I'm starting to realize how I don't have even have ONE friend who I can seriously count on. That sounds so loner-ish but hey its what I feel. Its not like I don't have any friends, because don't get me wrong I have tons. It just... who are the ones that I could call on, on a boring Sunday to hang out with me? Text randomly to go have coffee or just talk? Not make plans A MONTH ahead of time just to say we spent time with each other. Eh it just makes me really bummed how I don't feel like I have anyone to call a best friend. I use to feel like I did, then moving to what it feels like a million miles away didn't help. I'm tired of trying to put way too much effort in friendships that don't even mean anything. This isn't pointed out to any one person.

Maybe its just me - who knows.

I've come to the conclusion that I reminisce over the past way too much. And I miss those memories that I can never ever go back to. I just wish.