bout everythang

You definitely don't get what you want in life. And what you want is sometimes not the best for you and everyone else around you. As hard as it is for me to comprehend, I'm learning that every single person will fail you in life at one point or another. Its the effect of sin. Period. And I hate it. Knowing that, I guess its the way you want to deal with everything. Whether I want to drown and handle everything myself, or know I can't carry everything on my own shoulders and let God carry my burdens.

So besides life's lessons. Life for me hasn't been all that great. Of course, or else I wouldn't be writing right now. If it was my choice, I'd take off this fall- move back to sweet home California and go to The Masters College. If only....I was accepted, my parents would let me, and if I had an extra $30,000. Ha. If only. But I don't, so for know I guess I have to suck it up and live at home while finishing up this quarter at Bellevue College. I don't think I'll ever graduate and this school situation is so stressful.

I feel like everything I thought love was, has been clouded over with some sort of a lie. I actually came on here to rant about all of life and loves stupidness. But I guess there's no point in that. So....I'll end with saying I can't wait for the day God gives me the guy who will love and pursue Him more than he'll ever love me.